Morning Meds; 5 12 19
The constant need to perform at a predetermined level of excellence robs us of the blessings of the now we hold in our hand.
Our social customs demand us to do.
In meditation we can regain the ability to just be.
Morning Meds; 5 12 19
The constant need to perform at a predetermined level of excellence robs us of the blessings of the now we hold in our hand.
Our social customs demand us to do.
In meditation we can regain the ability to just be.
Morning Meds 5 11 20
Holy and Unholy fade into one just beyond the threshold of duality, all things do.
Sinking into our core opens that door.
Our collective beliefs no longer shine.
Within our core we see how we saw before our memory was erased.
Our formless essence, the eternal spark of who we truly are, is our core.
With all contrast removed only peacefulness remains.
Our limited vocabulary calls it unconditional love.
Morning Meds; 5 9 19
This is an old dream that changed my life. This is the first time I have written it out and the second time I have publicly shared it.
I received it shortly after a past life regression in which, when I was asked where I wanted to go?
I replied, “I want to sit in the heart of God.”
In that instance I was transported to the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt.
I was home, I was bathed in unconditional love.
Then I was asked, “What are you wearing on your feet?”
I answered, “I don’t have any, I am just a ball of light.”
There was more, but at the very end of the session I had this strange feeling of rising up out of the sand.
The word that came to mind was resurrected.
I had been in some way, set free.
I had this dream shortly after that.
This dream changed my dream experiences and the focus of my life.
I am somewhat reluctant to post it because of its macabre imagery.
I still am not certain of the full meaning of the three children.
I believe the first child is symbolic of my inner child.
I am writing this introduction, for without it the dream seems totally unconnected to anything.
Dream….
Standing on an adobe rooftop looking off to the northeast. In the twilight I can see the city. The sky is clear, and all the many homes have flat roofs and are constructed of stone or adobe. It is as if I am on guard watching the city.
I place my right hand on the top rail of the roof wall and in an effortless leap I vault over the rail and land on the ground below. I remember thinking that this wasn’t a normal human jump.
Next, I am entering into what I can best describe as a speeding passenger train. I can feel its movement and the clicking of its wheels. I enter it while it is running straight into me as if I were walking down the tracks towards it, I slightly trip as I enter.
The train is south bound and is packed with people. All of them are walking towards me to the front of the train. The hallway is as crowded as a sidewalk in New York and extends as far as I can see.
(Dreams are a symbolic language, for me the direction South has to do with physical reality)
I effortlessly passed through the crowd, I didn’t seem to pass through them, it was more like I slid in between them as if I were as thin as a piece of paper or air. No one was aware of my passing.
Walking through them for a short distance, I turned into a room to the west, it was filled with people too.
They were all standing in small groups holding plates and eating as if it was a company dinner party.
Approaching a small group of men, I whispered “I am bringing three.”
Turning around and leaving the room, I crossed the river of people moving in hallway, again I had no effect on them.
Across the hallway was a massive wooden door. One you would expect to see on a castle. It had gold-colored hinges and exposed square headed bolts holding it together. It swung into the hallway and was locked with an elaborate locking mechanism of some kind. At least three locks held it closed. I unlocked it and passed through its opening.
It opened into an abandoned playground, the sky was gray and overcast. A lone jungle gym stood near its center….
Next, I was standing by it, and I said, “I’m here to play.” I was expecting someone to meet me.
I looked down and there was a young boy standing in front of me about ten years old, looking up at me he asked, “You won’t bury me in the sand again, will you?”
I looked to my right and saw a shallow impression in the sand. (resurrected)
At that moment my jaw started to hurt, I reached up with my hands and grabbed my face in pain.
I could feel and see my lower face starting to stretch out longer until I had a face like a dog. Like I was watching a werewolf movie.
Next, I was headed back to the door I had entered through, but before I reached it I realized I could see in front of me and behind me at the same time.
Behind me stood a gallows with three young children hanging on it. I didn’t have to turn my head to stare at them.
Three different aged children hung there, the youngest about two and the oldest around ten, I had the impression they were all male.
Then in front of me a lady appeared. She was floating in the air, her feet about the height of a basketball goal above me. She had long flowing hair and a billowing garment. Her appearance was similar to the angel in the painting of the two children on a bridge, only there were no wings.
She said, “You are in a different dimension.”
Then she was gone and in front of me was a wall with a picture frame with no picture in it and a straight-backed wooden kitchen chair placed sideways against the wall facing north. ……..
I was baffled by the dream and still am about parts of it. Writing this out is helpful.
Two days after the dream, I was driving to work, and I saw a large hawk sitting on a sign. Seemingly out of the blue I thought, “Well good morning, Horus.”
Information poured in as if I had just been slapped and I realization that in the dream I was allowed to masquerade as Anubis from Egyptian mythology. Horus is an Egyptian messenger.
I guarded an Egyptian city.
Jumped from a rooftop to the ground.
Passed through the river of humanity while they journeyed on earth, unseen and unnoticed like air.
I preformed my duty and obligations to guide and helped bring souls to the Creator of All after they died.
“I am bringing three.”
I saw the three.
I saw and felt my head turn into an Egyptian jackal.
I could see the future and the past simultaneously.
I was visited by an angel figure who told me I was in a different dimension.
I knew nothing about Anubis until I started to research him after I realized what I had experienced in the dream.
I believe I have been in this present situation before in past lives, but for some reason I have never been brave enough to fulfill what I have chosen to do.
I have always buried that dream in the sand, maybe three or four times.
My dream is to help people cross the imagined distance between them and their concept of God so they too can feel whatever it was I felt when I asked to sit in the heart of God.
I shared a dream about two huge dogs that visited me. (Dream; Shadow Dogs)
https://storysspiritual.com/2021/11/06/dream-shadow-dogs/
My first impression when they appeared in the dream was that they were hellhounds, but they didn’t have red eyes.
I think they represent jackals as a way of confirmation.
I have been reluctant to share this dream, but I think it is important to share it least I am burying an opportunity in sand once again.
Thanks.
Morning Meds; 5 10 19
If love were a puddle
and I was a frog.
I’d float in that puddle
all day long.
Submerged in the love,
just my eyes poking out.
I’d let that love
remove all my doubts.

Morning Meds; 5 9 20
Thought by thought we walk through our day creating the atmosphere of emotions within us.
Morning Meds; 5 8 19
If your back is to a light, you will always see a shadow.
Turn your attention toward the light and the shadows fade.
Morning Meds; 5 7 19
When the word unconditional is no longer attached to the description of Source’s love, we will begin to be truly free from the illusion of separation.
We are one.
Unconditional implies conditions exist, they are just overlooked or ignored.
The difference between, being loved and being love.
Snapshot dream: One of those short dreams you see right before you wake up…
All I saw was a coffee thermos with the lid removed.
It tipped down and a pair of keys fell out.
They were the small kind that always come with a diary.
Then a regular sized set with maybe four or five house keys fell out……
When I meditated on the dream the diary keys reminded me of my morning journaling and I remembered that I had marked some things by drawing a key by them, so looked back though till I found the keys.
The place marked with the key was helpful information that I am trying to find ways to apply to my life, the dream was a reminder.
*A recurring theme in my meditation has been on how Consciousness becomes form.
Not so much our consciousness, but Consciousness in the sense of All There Is.
The energy that creates and animates everything.
Key.
Consciousness is formless,
Thoughts are form,
Emotions are form,
It is the idea of emotions being forms that I am trying to wrap my mind around.
The key dream was part one of a series of dreams.
I have had four more dreams since that have presented ways to assimilate the information.
This is what I have received so far. Most of it is information I already believe to be true.
The idea that emotions are form is still growing.
1. Everything is Consciousness, the All There Is. (God)
2. Our core essence is 100% Consciousness.
3. Thoughts are the first form that we use to create physical form, a blueprint of sorts.
4. Emotions are forms created in response to thoughts, more importantly beliefs.
5. We never are an emotion; we just allow ourselves to embody its energy. We are always, at our core essence, formless Consciousness.
I believe that we are here to learn and evolve and if that is true, the thing I am here to learn is how to survive depression and hopefully help others learn how to deal with it.
While meditating on this dream, through a reverie I saw the emotion, depression, as a huge boulder that I could walk around.
Suddenly seeing myself as an observer allowed me to separate from the emotion.
Our I Am statements, (I am depressed for instance) if said often enough and long enough creates an emotional form that we end up embodying and we start to believe they are us, while in fact we are eternal formless energy masquerading in created forms.
Once we see ourselves as separate from it, it allows you to start creating a new reality for yourself.
It is hard to convince ourselves that something is true if it doesn’t feel true.
I can’t tell myself I am happy when I feel depressed and believe it, but I can tell myself I am formless energy at my core, and I feel that it is true.
It creates a stopping point where I can separate myself from the feeling long enough to find a thought that will create a more useful emotional feeling.
Another reverie I saw was a giant gong.
The gong is symbolic of a vibrating emotion.
It was followed by the statement,
“You have never been the gong, the striker nor the sound.
How do you silence a gong?
You touch it with stillness.
If you want it to stop, quit striking the gong.”
I would be interested if this resonates with anyone.
Thanks.
Morning Meds; 5 6 19
Our daily spin beneath the sun constitutes a day.
The ancient sun rises
filling our world with light,
but the newness fades away and
we look forward to a new day.
Our spiritual growth is somewhat the same.
An ancient truth rises within
filling our soul with light.
Its newness fades away and
we long for a new truth.
The interlude between the dawns is not as precise,
but our transition is sure.
We spin eternally on,
day to day,
truth to truth,
lifetime to lifetime
and what we have experienced as we absorbed the light
is eternally ours.