Breaking Up with Yourself

Morning Meds; 2 1 23

This is a dream barely remembered.

All I could see were two fellow workers and a building with a door on it.

Next, I got up from a table and walked to kitchen sink. While I was running water, I thought about someone, I wasn’t sure who.

The thought was “I just won’t call any more.  I call on Friday and they will be mad because I didn’t tell them.”

It had a strong feeling of a relationship ending, but something new was coming. I was ok with it, but sad just the same.

End of Dream.

I am recently retired so it could be that, but it hasn’t had the feeling of a relationship ending. I think this retired gig is rather fun.

I journal every morning and when I looked back at yesterday’s entry, it had to do with how we evolve as a person in our personal growth.

There have been many changes in the last few years as I have endeavored to change my outlook towards myself and paint a more positive opinion.

What I once saw as the person I was, was a view from a box unopened.

After the box was opened and I was graced with a view into unlimited possibilities and spiritual worlds before unseen and since I worked to clamor out of the box to embrace them.

To know something and to fully embrace something is a process of change and old outlooks and behaviors can linger.

With perseverance and intent, we push forward until our new outlooks and new behaviors prevail and we can end a relationship with parts of the who we were and fully embrace the who we have become.

To fully be the who we have becomes often reaches a point where new behavior must be developed and pursued.

Ending a relationship with parts of ourselves even if they are no longer useful can be sad, it is a part of who we have been for a long time.

Within our essence is the blueprint of the who we have always been for all eternity.

Our challenges at this time are real, but they are superficial in comparison to who and what we truly are.

It could be that the dream was a picture of what I had meditated on that morning.

Dreams are gifts from within and beyond.

Write them down you would be amazed at all the information the offer.