Category: healing

Chutes and Ladders

Morning Meds; 10 13 22

Went to court today and everyone was me, judge, jury, prosecutor, defense attorney, bailiff, recorder and all who were there.

What was on trial was the beliefs I was raised with compared to what I believe now.

I saw a pathway of steppingstones strewn before me, the stones of the old and stones of the new and those still forming.

Like a game of Chutes and Ladders where the old stones slide you back to the old beliefs and the new stones carry you to the new.

Subtle differences disguised within the stones, often not seen, but felt.

If I am still looking for unconditional love, do I still see myself as unlovable?

In the old belief system, I couldn’t feel the love unless my faults were forgiven, nor could I fully access the Creator Of All.

In the new system I am just loved for I am 100% Source Energy; I am not in fear of judgement, loved or not loved doesn’t apply, access is just a thought away.

I am made-up of Everything That IS, and I can choose how I wish to express myself and my eternal existence in not contingent upon a single human existence.

The impact of duality is part of a human experience to teach me to love for love is the strongest energy.

I choose beliefs which look the most like love and those which feel the most compassionate for they are the most pleasant.

When I misstep and walk on the stones of the first, I begin to feel a loss of connection and I find myself reaching without instead of within.

I expect I will visit this court again and often, but many of the things I once struggled with have been thrown out of court and are no longer an issue.

The Bottom of Depression

Morning Meds; 10 15 22

The energy beneath a situation is where the solutions lay at least emotionally.

It we discern the energy beneath it, we can adjust how we act instead of reacting.

Most the time if it is troublesome the energy beneath it is fear, but what is the energy beneath depression if that is the situation?

Here are five of its characteristics:

It seems dark,

It impairs creative vision,

It conceals options,

It is confining in that it makes one feel trapped,

It creates a perceived inability to help yourself.

Fear produces many of these same results,

but what is the energy beneath the fear?

Something must be working right, or you wouldn’t be feeling fear, the processor is working fine it is just sending up the wrong set of feelings.

All energy is living in a sense, if you reduce it to its smallest form, atoms and molecules.

If we reduce it again, energy is an eternal dynamic formless essence that we describe as atoms.

I believe they are the expressed and unexpressed Consciousness of our creator of which we are a part.

Beneath the feeling or the energy of fear are the atoms and molecules that physically produce that those feelings in our bodies.

Atoms or energy are not depressed, they are neutral, they only form what they are directed to form.

So beneath fear and depression is the unlimited magnificence of the creator of universes.

Its not that we don’t have access to change, it is that we don’t realize how much possibility is available to us for change.

Being a depression survivor, what has worked for me is to do is the simple task of trying to send love to the depression and all its pain. I send it right down to my gut. It can be very difficult at first, but love will filter down through the pain, hopelessness, darkness, and the imagined inability. It will filter down through the fear and it will connect to our core of our soul.

The energy quickening our soul is perfectly intact and is working fine, the energy is just being filtered through fear instead of love.

Sounds corny at first, but it creates a light at the end of what can be a very dark tunnel.

I don’t make any claims of being a doctor or a therapist, although I’ve had a few, I just want to share what has helped me to manage and climb out of the pit of depression.

Note From a Survivor

Morning Meds 10 12 22

Depression seen from the inside out.

Depression is:

Living in a world where the sun never shines.

Living with an invisible bag over your head that make everything dark.

Living with perpetual flu like symptoms of weariness and fatigue with no end in sight.

A place where hope is hidden.

Not living, it is merely existing.

But most importantly,

Escapable,

Healable,

And can be recovered from.

Echoes Of Footsteps

Morning Meds; 10 11 22

Revelations of lives past echoing with our footsteps now,

forms hiding in our shadow as it floats across the earth.

Light creates shadow exposing loveless moments offering up offences to a alter of forgiveness.

Childlikeness regained; innocence returned.

Memories stirred by the present,

recreated in a moment of grief,

we punish ourselves these memories awakened.

Not You, Not Me

Morning Meds; 10 8 22

As we wave our minds through the fog of solidity we begin to see that nothing is solid.

Not you, not me.

We exist as a mist surrounded by a fog in a cloud of imagined realities.

Ever changing, constantly reshaping ourselves by whims, beliefs and intentions.

Our greatest strength is our fluidity.

Our greatest solace is that we can always change.

Our greatest tool of transformation is realization.

Our greatest guiding direction is always love.

Healing Waters

Morning Meds 10 7 22

Healing waters

Rivers rising through me

Rivers of white light

A Transformative touch beyond the line that runs between the spiritual and the profane.

Seeking physical manifestation and spiritual change

Through the vail of hidden truths

Through portals of access to the divine

Light flowing like water

When caps are removed the energies rise overflowing the small shelter housed in our heart.

Someone sent me healing today.

I know not who

I passed it on down the line to all I knew and

asked the healing to return the healer so they could feel it too.

…following a dream… .